Poison

This is one of my favorites, but Iā€™m really not sure what reaction Iā€™ll get to it.

This song really didnā€™t work in its first iteration (and maybe not in this one, eitherā€¦but itā€™s better than it was). It took a certain scheming, disingenuous individual to pull this one out of me the right way. Anyone out there who knows me and might be concerned this is about themā€¦if youā€™re not sure, itā€™s not about you. She knows who she is.

And she earned this.

I took off Damage is Done this week. Let me know what you think at [email protected].

Donā€™t Run Away

This is one of my favorites. The key line for me is ā€œI may tell you that I love you, long before I do.ā€ The idea came from a situation where someone told me that they loved me so early in a relationship, it felt like manipulation to me. It was awkward, like there was some angle that I wasnā€™t seeing. And, yesā€¦for those of you that know me…I did, in fact, consider that maybe that person was being honestā€¦but my Spidey senses went off, big time. If you were dating someone that had never really been in a long term relationship, and they told you they loved you really quicklyā€¦would you trust it?

I took down ā€œI Want This Fightā€ this week.

As usual, let me know what you think of the siteā€¦or the songs, or the blog, or the lyrics, or the blue colorā€¦ at [email protected]. Really. Like, even if you donā€™t like it.

From San Francisco to San Jose

This is about 20 years old, written about the time I moved, for all intents and purposes, from San Francisco to San Jose. The only thing that really rang true to my life was the move itself. I missed the city, I was a little further away than I thought Iā€™d be, and those sentiments drove the initial idea here. The song itself is about a relationship going a little south, and settling on a plane a little lower than expected. It doesnā€™t always reach the heights expected, but those are still within range.

We took off ā€œKissed Her Goodbyeā€ this week. Thanks again for listeningā€¦

Align to a Purpose

This rotationā€™s song was inspired by a conversation with a good friend. In the course of outlining why a relationship wasnā€™t working, and she used the phrase ā€œI just want us to align to a purpose.ā€ I immediately thought, well shoot, there we goā€”Iā€™ve never heard that phrase in a song. I started writing it largely attacking myself, with a much more personal, Dashboard Confessional-type feel to itā€¦slower, and more biting lyrics. I ultimately sped it up some, cut out two versus and, hopefully, wound up with a better song.

I took off ā€œLiftā€ this week. Once again, welcome to the new folks. Let us know what you thinkā€¦

Moving in Circles

Five years ago, this thing was a mess –I totally forgot Iā€™d written it, it was too long and lyrically inconsistent, and I only stumbled on it trying to find another song. That said, I felt like there was something there. It wound up being the first song I overhauled in my massive song restoration process, and itā€™s now the first song Iā€™ll post as I exit that phase of my life.

The lyrics are about cutting the chord, escaping toxicity, and trying to move forward. In retrospect, I now see it as a song about cleaning up your life, with a tune that had to be cleaned up itself, which was re-written and recorded in a time period I was focused on cleaning up my life. Itā€™s a living symbol of the times.

Lyrically, I wish I couldā€™ve executed better on the concept of the last line (I canā€™t bend). I initially attempted to hit on the concept that constantly bending to the will of others, and not straightening out your own life, led to the circles. A few edits later (which I liked)ā€¦the reference now just kind of sits there alone. Oh well. Songwriting is hard.

I took off ā€œI’ll Blame You.ā€